RyRySays

I read a post called 56 things to do before I'm 25 and stole some of the ideas. While I am well past (does 5 years count as well past?) 25, there are still things I want to do that I think are important. Some of the things on Cassie's list I've already done, so I didn't include them; others are things I don't really want to do, or don't think really belong on my list, so I didn't include those either.

Ride in a hot air balloon
Buy a house
Take a new dance class
Go camping in a state on the west coast
Write a book…or maybe a nice article
Build something
Plant something
Take a road trip with friends (I have taken trips with friends, but not the kind I'm thinking of: a cross-country, stop at random stuff type trip)
Keep a journal for more than a month
Take a risk
Visit 10 landmarks across the US
Make a large purchase without panicking
Be fearless
Learn 10 new religions (or learn more about religion in general)
Fall in love
Change a tire alone instead of just helping
Ride in a horse drawn carriage in a romantic way
Invest in something
Make a decision without questioning myself
Be content
Take a graphic design course
Make a piece of jewelry
Milk a cow
Ride an elephant

I've adjusted some of the list to suit me better, but the only thing I'll add at this point in time is to have a kid, because while I love her lots, Layla is not a baby and I feel like a need a kid or 2 in my life.

Note - it is almost 3 am where he is.

On yahoo chat:
J: hey, i'm going to call you because I have some news to tell you
Me: ok
J: 2 min
Me: ok

Bring Bring.

Me: Hello.
J: May I please speak with Ry
Me: Speaking. Why may I ask is calling.
J: Shut up.
Me: So what's your news?
J: I'll call you tomorrow.
Me: So your news is that you'll call me tomorrow?
J: Yes.
Me: You're not in trouble or anything are you?
J: No
Me: Didn't get in a fight?
J: No
Me: So really your news was that you'll call me tomorrow?
J: Yes. Goodnight.

Sorry I've been away for so long. I went home, then to MD, then back to NC and now on to VA and DE. It's crazy I tell you. But also, it's been hot and humid and my computer has been randomly turning itself off (I think it's overheating and I need to get one of those cooling pad things), so that equals lack of posts. I do promise to try better. I think of things to say when I am away from the computer, then as soon as I sit in front of it, my mind goes blank.

I've been reading Kristen Hannah lately. I think I mentioned "True Colors" in an earlier post, and I've read 3 others since and have enjoyed them all. The latest one was called "Distant Shores" and while I didn't like it as much as some of the others, there was a quote that really spoke to me:

"Maybe it was a weakness in her, a fear of failure that made safety seem more important than fulfillment."

I think that's me. I am afraid to do some things because of a lack of security. I'm talking about big stuff - like moving without having a job because I already have an apartment here and what happens if I move and then get a job somewhere else; or putting myself out there on e-harmony because what if I find someone and they break my heart; or dropping everything and backpacking across Europe with the remaining $1k that I have instead of trying to be responsible. Things like that.

I've always held back from taking a really big leap-frog jump. Not so much because I'm scared of the jump itself, but more so the landing and what comes after. I've always been a planner, the person with the mom-van who has wet-naps and coozies and chapstick and an emergency $1, the one who reminds people of stuff they should know already. I don't regret being that person, and I'm comfortable with it, but I think I might have missed out on something that might have changed my life because of it.